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  1. jeanne cary
    2014-11-15 @ 10:07 PM

    I lost my 25 year old son Kyle 10-01-10. I have done so many things that have helped me heal and continue to heal. I have shared so many memories of him and talked so much about him to anyone who would listen. Most people want to listen. The memories I share are great memories that if Kyle were still here I would be sharing memories of him. They are awesome funny memories. Because I keep him in my thoughts it helps me to move forward and it has created a connection to him. I receive so many signs from him I started a journal. The more I keep his memory alive the more signs I receive from him. My faith and awareness has become so strong I can hardly believe it. But I wouldn’t want it any other way:-) Keep The Faith. I would never in a million years have thought I could be where I am after Kyle died. But he is with me and I am thankful to have this special connection. I pray that those who are feeling the pain I felt will feel the Peace that I feel today

    • Julia
      2014-11-17 @ 2:07 PM

      Jeanne! What a gorgeous message. I’m sure it will help many others. Thank you so much!

  2. Juanitasadlier
    2015-04-14 @ 8:27 PM

    I’m a mother who lost my son to suicide in April 29 2013. He was 22. I have been experiencing some things that are hard to talk about. I feel that I don’t fit in anywhere. I believe that my son has transferred information to me that has affected my perception of this world. I have changed. Out of all my children he looks the most like me and this haunts me. Sometimes I feel looking at him I see more of him than myself.

    • Julia
      2015-04-23 @ 8:48 AM

      Juanita, What you are experiencing is normal for what you are going through. And you are far from alone. Suicide among young male adults claims more deaths than automobile accidents. So many mothers who have lost a son to suicide are joining together to help each other. They write books about their communication with their sons. You should attempt to communicate more directly with him. Look on my homepage at the bottom for a quick how-to on after-death communication. Your perceptions will continue to change. Many mothers have found their lives charged with spiritual energy and purpose.

  3. L.K
    2015-05-03 @ 6:08 AM

    hello,
    I lost my son 37 years old dentist to suicide. July first is 4 years I lost him. At the begining I was talking to him all the time in my head. But now it is less. I don’t know sometimes I am telling myself it is my voice who is answering my question. I am devastated. There is not one day I don’t think of him. I cry and cry and the only think I want front God first to punish my daughter in law who pushed my son to kill himself and left with all his money then for myself to die and join him. God knows how much I suffer. Maybe my son knows too. I have been reading since 4 years ago all over Internet to see where he is now. I believe now that I will join him when my time comes. And I hope mytime comes the sooner the better. I know and feel all the parents lost their child to suicide. I know their deep pain. I blame myself. My husband and I blame ourself. Please do not tell me it is not your fault. Because he told us about his wife of 3 years. How she is acting with him and how she pushed him to depression but we did not do anything about it. We did not let him divorce her. So it is all fault too. We did not help him . I pray to God that he forgave me. I love him so much and I miss him so much. I wait for the day soon that he comes and I leave with him.

    • Julia
      2015-05-03 @ 3:31 PM

      Dear LK, I am so sorry your pain is so extreme. There is nothing harder on humans than death of a child, especially by suicide and accidents.

      Please know, however, that your pain will not keep you connected to your son. Many people are afraid if they return to any sort of normalcy after a death, they will lose their connection to the deceased. This is NOT so. And it may be your involvement with the pain that is screening your son out. Your grief is not just grief, but also rage and guilt. In order to return to this world with some measure of peace, you will need help. I would strongly recommend you go to an Induced After-Death Communication Therapist. There is bound to be one in Canada. These therapists are trained to put you in direct contact with your beloved on the other side. When that happens, which can take no more than a minute, communication is so powerful that resolution comes as a result. I am sure your son wants to help you. He will be there when you are ready.

      The link for this revolutionary type of therapy is: http://www.induced-adc.com/
      It was discovered working with veterans suffering from severe PTSD.

      I hope this helps a little. The point is, you don’t have to live this way and your son, for sure, does not want it for you either.

  4. Michele
    2017-01-17 @ 8:39 PM

    I have lost my daughter Alexis to a horrible car accident. She was only 19 she had her whole life ahead of her. It’s only been 8 months to the day. I feel lost and don’t understand why. I would have given my life for her. I have so many questions and will never get the answers that’s what is killing me the most. I was not able to say goodbye or that I love you.

    • Julia
      2017-03-05 @ 10:50 AM

      Dear Michele, People react in so many ways to such a devastating loss. Be patient with yourself. In the meantime, use your strongest emotion to contact Alexis. You don’t have to say goodbye. Say HELLO! See how she is NOW. She is more alive now than she ever was. Go to the bottom of my homepage for tips on how to communicate. Let me know what happens!

      I’m an so very sorry for the pain you are in.

      Julia

  5. Kathy Clauson
    2018-05-11 @ 12:31 AM

    My son Jonathan, my only child, took his own life on February 3, 2010, nine days afrer his 19th birthday. He was very kind and had a big heart and more than anything, he really just wanted to fit in and find some good friends he could count on. He was very creative, had a superior IQ, and an analytical mind, and although school subjects bored him, it was clear to me that he was going to do great things someday. I can’t say we always got along, but I would have gladly given my life for him. The last time we talked was an argument, which I will forever regret. I was at work the day he died. He had been with my parents and my mom called to tell me he had taken off in his car and had somehow managed to get a rifle out of my parents’ locked closet in their bedroom. I left work and tried to look for him. Something told me where to find him, but when I arrived, it was too late. That night our home felt black, like it had been shrouded with thick black velvet. I tried to sleep but ended up in his room around 3am. I looked out his window and his punching bag, hanging in his favorite old tree, was swinging back and forth, full force, as if someone had pushed it hard or kick-boxed it. I woke my husband and he saw it too. I remember saying–“he made it to the other side–he’s telling us he is ok.” That was eight years ago and although we have witnessed MANY unexplained events, I have never been able to see my son or talk with him. I believe that would give me so much peace and help me dissolve the emptiness, the grief, the regret, and the feeling I could have prevented his death or been a better mother somehow. I truly appreciate all the clever signs we believe he has sent us to tell us he’s still here with us. One of most remarkable things happened the first mother’s day after his death. Five years before Jonathan died, he and my husband had planted a mulberry tree for Mother’s Day. The winters were harsh and it only lived a couple years but we never cut it down. On the morning of Mother’s Day 2010, I thought I saw blooms on the dead tree. I ran out there and the little tree was alive and it was covered with fragrant pink blooms. That was the greatest gift of my life and I know Jonathen somehow made that happen. My life has been split into “before”and “after” and I still miss him. And in spite if the truly inventive signs from him I still feel lost without him.

    • Julia Assante
      2018-05-12 @ 9:31 PM

      Dear Kathy, thank you for your eloquent and very touching account. Do not blame yourself! An argument won’t mean anything to your son. He understands. I’ve worked with a lot of your men who took their own lives. Often they are not sure why! If you want to make contact with him without waiting for him to show up, look at the steps I give at the bottom of my homepage. Or read my book. I have 5 chapters alone dedicated to afterlife communication. You can do it! Julia

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